how each person carries around this idea of themself, and act it out on the world at all times; pushing the actual flow of events with artificially cultivated intention. Each nervous gesture is a lapse between the idea of themself. The gestures of nervoiusness are clumsy attempts by the real self to reveal itself; notice how clumsy it is; how naturally opposed we are to it. - how each step is as it on a runway, each sitting position out of a popular teen clothing shopping booklet each utterance an opinion formed outside the self, from an admired source. liked out of context.

she moves like water trickles tremble down the wall wash away all that's gone watch the way she carries on a pick me up/side to every tale every story nobody tells

2004/5?